Questions

I have asked myself this week:

Does Ian really have that hard of a head?

Why in the world would I buy Ian a TWENTY pack of “washable” markers?

Why did I ever let Marci and Eric make me believe driving around with a full change of clothes in my trunk was a bad thing?

How many times can I watch Little People and the same youtube video of boats?

Really, how bad is it to bribe Ian with fruit chewies?

Can a white girl rock a fro?

Why does the weight floor at the gym intimidate the hell out of me??

Let me start from the beginning of this tale – well, not a tale, all this stuff is 100% true, most of it, I wish were not! Sunday, father’s day – great day we were having until Ian climbed on a wall about 18 inches high, I turn my back for a second – literally, one second and CRASH…I turn around and he is now on the cement ground head down and feet up in the air. I checked to make sure there was no blood, a friend got him an ice pack, he cried, I felt like crying, we cuddled, he downed a cup of Gatorade and then declared he was done with me and wanted back in the pool. He was fine, it didn’t really even bruise the next day but I still felt like an a-hole for not watching him the whole time – lesson learned.

Washable markers are a lie – flat out a lie. And to top this off, some of them are smelly and Ian watched me smell a few (brings back old memories I guess??) and now he tries to smell them all.

Yesterday, I wished I still drove around with half of my closet in my car – which I haven’t done since I moved in with Eric 5 years ago because he keeps my trunk clean. Ian and I went to an impromptu lunch and swim date at my friend’s house. Let me back up here a bit – Ian had his swim gear on because we were on our way home from a splash and play play date when Teri called to see if Ian and I wanted to come over for lunch and to swim. She needed to go to the store to grab a few items for lunch though, so I said we would being we were already in the car. SO, I was that mom with my kid with no shirt and no shoes in the store – nice. I briefly thought to myself, I wonder if I need a swimsuit – no, why would I, Ian never wants in the big pool. Guess who wanted in the big pool???? NOT ME! SO, I swam in my panties, bra and t-shirt because Teri is a stick and only has bikinis – no thanks.

I think the next question explains itself? Really, Ian – we need a little variety.

Fruit chewies – the box says 100% real fruit or something like that! I know it is bad but they are easy and sometimes, easy is nice.

My hair is turning into a fro – I almost had Eric cut it last night. I am so not used to styling curling hair but today it looks cute so I am glad I didn’t have him chop it off!

I SO want to lift weights and the thing is, I do know what I am doing – I need to start out in the women’s area, get comfortable and head out with the big boys – oh the drama of my life.

Let’s see, this week has really been good. I haven’t heard back from the dermatologist about the mole I had removed, so I am guessing everything is fine – they tend to call quickly if it is cancer.

I am now child free for a few hours and need to make Laurie’s baby-shower invites – wish me luck.

Hitting my stride!

I am not sure how many of you have run before, but you know that moment when you hit your stride and it all just falls into place – that is how this week has been for me and me and Ian. Ian started Mother’s Day Out on M/W from 9:30 – 1:30, and he is loving it. I really think he missed his little friends from school and more so, I missed a little solo time! Let’s see what else did we do this week – we went to the movies and Ian made it about 40 minutes through. Next time we will sit in the back row so he can stand up in his seat and I won’t have a woman behind me hiss that her daughter can’t see – I am come on, we are at a FREE movie people; we went to gymnastics – Ian loved that, Jungle Java – best $3 ever spent – he played for over 2 hours there and he was wiped out, we went to a music class – that was a really neat class but man alive, $25 per 45 minute class is a little much in my opinion – I will stick to finding the free classes for now! We had doctor’s appointments, actually cooked dinner several nights and just hung out. Like I said, we have hit our stride and we are off and running.
I had to get a mole removed that the dermatologist thought was “suspicious” and let me tell you how pissed I will be if it comes back skin cancer. I don’t have a feeling it will – thinking back to waiting to find out if I had breast cancer or not, I think I already knew it was cancer – anywho, did that and am now waiting to hear from them what the verdict is.
I started back to working out this week – I did weights THREE days this week, yes, count them, THREE days and cardio two days. With all that, one would THINK I would be able to sleep at night but I haven’t been, so I am back on the ambien (spelling?) to fall asleep at night – UGH, I hate having to take it but I hate not sleeping even more.
Things are really good here! I am loving more and more everyday staying home with Ian and seeing him learn new things and just being here for him to come hug or to kiss an awie for him. I honestly can say, this is the happiest I have been in a very long time.

A few more trip pictures:

Trip Pictures

Where oh, where can my baby be…

This two year took him away from me. These two lines pretty much sums up our last week – where did our sweet baby go and who replaced him with this…this TOODLER???

A lot has happened in the last week – what would life be like if a lot didn’t happen? I had a follow up with my radiation oncologist of Friday, yes, with Ian in tow and lesson learned, a toddler at a cancer building is good and bad – good because all the patients were eating him up and bad because the employees looked at him for the germy little guy he is. Dr. was super impressed with where I am in regards to energy and what all I have been doing. He was even more impressed that I was at home all day with Ian and told me that if I have set backs in the weeks, even months to come to be easy on myself because he really had not seen anyone rebound back this quick. So, I guess with that, I will take his permission to slow down a bit and stop feeling guilty when I need to nap!

The second half of Friday was much different, we packed the Camry up and hit the road to FL. The trip ended up being 11.5 hours and we drove it straight through – well, Eric drove 8 of the hours – hey, I can’t see at night ;)

We arrived at Marci’s at a bright and early 6:30 a.m. but it was wonderful. We had such a great time there with them, at the beach and watching Ian and Claire play, well until the last few days when Ian was tired of sharing his toys and PUSHED Claire down – oh, that is right, he pushed her down. Eric and I felt horrible about it. But Ian made it up a little later by giving Claire huge hugs and kisses and it was SO funny watching them together. She really liked Ian but was tired of him also by the end.

Ian talked a big game about the water, but every day we went to the beach, he didn’t want to get in the water. He loved playing in the sand though and with his boats. He will make his daddy happy and be a boat man.

We decided to leave Thursday around noon, stop in Slydell to see Eric’s aunt and uncle and then head home. We got home Friday morning around 2:30 in the morning and Friday was a wash for me, I couldn’t get my head back in the game after staying up so late.

And as any good vacation comes and goes, so do the pounds – I gained FIVE pounds while there. Boo to that. Now back to real life, getting these new pounds off as well as others, taking Ian to MDO tomorrow for his first day and balancing the credit card statement – can’t we go back to the beach and drink more wine and beer??

Second verse…

Is better than the first! This second week has been much better than last week in many ways but man, it is still challenging. Monday started out as total chaos. I had a training appointment at the gym at 9:00, needed to be downtown by 10:30 to clean out my office and then head to lunch at 11:00 ish – so my plan was to train, shower and get ready at the gym while Ian was in the kids club and head downtown. As we all know, the best laid plans – well, I don’t know the end of that saying. Let’s just say, I didn’t get to take a shower at the gym and I ended up changing clothes in the laundry room at home while Ian was sitting in his car seat in the garage – hey, I am learning to adapt to things not going my way!
Tuesday was great. We were invited to an impromptu sports ball class where Ian had a blast. We went to lunch with some girls at Chick-fil-a and to the pool in the afternoon! Then I got a wild hair and decided I was going to go to an aerobic class at the gym. The only one that was offered at 7:00 was turbo jam – the description said something like come get your groove on. So I thought, I’ve got this. Well, I have never felt SO white and uncoordinated in my life. I mean these girls were moving and shaking like I have never seen before. I finished the class but left with a new sense of pride. Pride you ask? Well, for one, I actually stayed and finished and two, my body felt great afterward. I don’t think I will be going back any time soon, but I might!
Wednesday – Friday, I had two appointments that Ian went with me to and that was a whole new experience. He hasn’t be allowed that many fruit gummies ever! We have been going to the pool daily, which he loves and it is nice for me as I have made some new friends there! We are leaving town tonight to head to FL to see Marci – YEAH – I can’t wait!