Saturday, June 23, 2018
To me – not having anything to write about means nothing out of the ordinary has been happening!
But that isn’t how I want to look at it because many things out of my ordinary have been happening – just not health crisis!
I really pray this is my new ordinary.
I was asked to be on a panel to talk about blood cancer for the Leukemia Lymphoma Society. I was there as a patient who has been through a bone marrow transplant to give real life examples of the recovery process and life after a transplant.
I LOVED it! I loved sitting up there getting to talk (yes, I do love to talk!), share my experience and most of all HOPE!
I have another presentation scheduled Aug. 4 at Austin Cancer Rehab. This one is titled “Control” – how to stay in control when your world is falling apart. I am SO excited to start giving talks. I feel like this is the beginning of something big to come! I imagine myself giving talks to large audiences all over…what a fun thing to dream about!
I have gotten on AND stayed on the workout wagon! This is so exciting to me because…well – it isn’t the easiest thing for me BUT I feel amazing. I am not exactly sure what is making me feel so great and even if it isn’t the working out, I know it sure isn’t hurting me so I will continue.
I am back to painting again, and it feels good…not great but good. I am struggling to find my new style. I am honing in on it, but I am not all the way there yet.
I feel like there is more to tell, but I can’t think of anything at the moment. It is nice to be able to leave this on a really good note!
Monday, June 4, 2018
I have no energy.
I have no motivation to do much.
I have been in this exact same place too many times to count.
I always seems to come out of my slump in my own time, but it seems to be getting harder every time??
I am trying something new...not new in theory but new to me actually doing it. I am going to MAKE myself go to my neighborhood gym DAILY for 20 minuets to ride the recumbent bike. I have to...I have to figure out some way for me to get more energy.
Yes - I know just getting out and walking seems like it would be easier than driving there for a short period BUT walking in the heat is not good for me...the heat completely zaps me.
I am so tired of being so tired.
Thursday, May 24, 2018
I used to be an ALL or NOTHING person...heck-who am I kidding-I still am BUT I am trying to break that nasty habit.
Yes, I said nasty.
Why nasty you might be wondering?
Nasty because that thought pattern has been holding me back from doing SO many things in life because I knew it would take time to learn, grow, get better, but very likely not be perfect.
Not be ALL all the time.
Not be NOTHING either.
Why can’t it be GREAT to be in the middle?
Why have I been afraid of cruising in the middle? At least I am doing something about it...whatever it is.
I am going to use my gaining back my strength, balance, and stamina as an example.
I have beaten myself up time and time again for not sticking to a workout routine. I can’t stick to these crazy a*s workouts I have in my mind because I am NOT a professional athlete AND I have brain damage. When I put it like that, yes, it is easy for me not to beat myself up. BUT, I don’t always remember this and beat myself up anyway.
I am changing though!
I am recognizing this “all or nothing” mentally doesn’t serve me ...at all.
I have been doing my PT exercises on a daily basis. I don’t get all sweaty, breath heavy or get shaky muscles, but I do see a HUGE improvement in so many small deliberate motions I use over and over again to make my walking easier and more confident.
Where am I going with all this?
That not being “all” is actually helping me so much more because I can sustain being in the middle. I can do my exercises daily without being completely worn down and needing to recover for 4 days. I am pretty sure doing something every day at a smaller percent is better than doing it 1 out of 5 days?!?!
I am learning to be proud of an accomplishment - not measuring how big said accomplishment is - it is an accomplishment no matter what!
Tuesday, May 15, 2018
I am excited.
Friday, May 11, 2018
Yes I am shouting with excitement!
Thursday, May 10, 2018
I am the type of person who LOVES infomercials...I LOVE THEM!!
I think it is because it breaks something down that seems complex into do-able steps.
Eh...really, it doens’t matter to me why I love them...I do!
So when I saw Body Grove on either a FB or Instragram ad, I was intrigued. I watched this chick do fun, easy dance moves - to get my body moving dance moves - not asking for perfection dance moves - just moves to get my blood flowing, to get the energy in my body moving.
I honestly don’t know how long ago I ordered this DVD, but I thought about it this morning and decided to follow my intuition to do it.
It was awesome!
I can’t tell you what kind of dance type it is. But I can tell you that I bought it, did it - all following my intuition.
Do you follow your intuition?
What is the best story you have about following your intuition?