Back to grey

So so sorry for no post in such a long time… I really am trying to get better about posting even when nothing exciting is going on, but my life doesn't really work like that now does it??

The past two weeks I have been having fierce migraines again so we all knew it comes with migraines… Darkrooms lots of sleep and MRIs.

BLAH.

The MRI results are 95% all good. We are waiting on Dr. Groves final report which I don't go see him and he'll mid August but for right now we are calling my migraines from necrosis...again.

Eric did some reading about necrosis and these symptoms I'm having go right along with having had three brain surgeries and the scar tissue filling in and moving around which causes the migraines and unfortunately it looks like this is something that can be an ongoing issue for me… Yippee?!?!

Green with envy

I don't know why that title popped in my head for the name of this new 20x16 mixed media piece I just finished.

This started as something SO different than how it ended up...

After writing that line the name of the piece is perfect...when we are "Green with Envy" for someone else's life, my guess is that the life you are envious over is SO different than what it looks like from the outside.

Here is the entire piece.

I can see this hanging in so many different places...office, play room, bed room...you get the picture. 

If you are interested in purchasing, email me at ReneeInCancer@gmail.com

If not sold by 8:00 tonight, I will post for those not on email list!

Have a great rest of your day.

Oops I did it again

It really isn't just an oops... it is a why in the hell do I keep doing this to myself? 

I have been going full blast these last few days getting art done, which is something I love to do but then I get all caught up in my head with oh I need to make this for somebody and oh somebody ordered this and on and on and on and on.

And it isn't the making of the art that it tires me out. The creative process is something my soul craves. It is the after steps that wear me out…shipping it out, invoicing the payments and all the other stuff that does come alone with selling stuff. (In a dreamy voice) maybe one day I could hire somebody to do all the yuck I don't want to do?!?!

Yes looking at these pictures I see well heck yeah I'm tired is a lot of stuff I've gotten done in these last few days.

Oh and guess what else I'm looking into...yes just as I'm complaining that I have too much to do. 

I think I want to start a podcast of me reading Renée In Cancerland and taking questions from listeners and just a general feel good you can do this podcast!

What do you think?

Would you listen?

Alone

I will be honest, I have never lived by myself, but I do enjoy alone time.

Sometimes I wonder if I would enjoy having more time to myself and doing only what I want to do? Like wake up late, leave my paint stuff out, have no real schedule.

I have the answer now…NO. No I would not enjoy this all the time.

I have been alone for 5 days now with the guys out of town, and I have a new appreciation for Ian asking me for help, Eric coming home from work and giving me a kiss, Lucy being in the way every which way I turn.

I am ready to share my hours with them.

I have gotten a TON of painting done which makes me happy, but I can get that much done even when they are here. 

I have learned a few things about myself in these past few days:

I need a schedule,

I need someone to hold me to that schedule...if left to my own, I think I might just float in and out of things.  And it isn't that Eric holds me to a schedule, but when he is at work and has something to show for his day, I want to be able to do the same.

I need to chit chat...I like to talk!

I am pretty messy...I leave a trail of various items out all over the place.  I know I was like this before Eric and I got married and it drove others crazy, but I didn't see it.  I pick up when Eric is here because I don't like for him to go behind me and pick up my sh*t...BUT while he has been gone I haven't been picking up.  I now see I pick up not just so he doesn't need too...I don't like the mess either! I still have random crap here and there, but I know where that crap is...which is strange.

I have learned a lot this week being alone.  

I think most of all, I have learned to really appreciate what I have.