For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I am holding tight to this verse – OH so tight.
I know He has plans and as hard as it is to admit it to myself, I don’t know the plans and I shouldn’t know the plans ahead of time – I just need to know He has a plan and is putting it into place this second.
There has been a slight change of plans this week.
After my radiation and neurologist spoke, they came up with a new plan.
I will do brain radiation Wednesday, Thursday and Friday verses just one day.
I will go in at 430 daily to get the good drugs to calm me being as I will have to be strapped to the table with a mesh face mask (yes, I have pictures)
Radiation will be 500-530 ish
As much as I do NOT want to do 3 days of radiation on my brain, I do trust this plan…but I am scared.
One day of radiation seemed to totally throw me over the edge last time into crazy town and zapped every last ounce of energy I had left.
And I still don’t know what “maintenance” I will be on.
I am ready for a plan.
I guess looking back my Monday/Thursday plan wasn’t so bad.
I actually miss going there 2x a week. I kind of feel like I have lost a group of friends and now will be an outsider when there verses a part of them.