Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!

I know I haven’t written on in forever – I am not even sure where to start from where to go with this or what to say to start.  There is a lot more, but for now this will be what it will be.

All the sudden yesterday I felt would be able to walk with just my cane – which is a huge improvement because I have needed to use a walker or wheelchair to get around for the past few weeks, if I was getting around at all.

I am starting to taper all my steroids which is hard but good. I am still exhausted from recovering from the 2^nd surgery and trying to recover.

I am going to try to get my MRI on Thursday, so I can get my results on Monday the 31.

Please pray MRI is clear, treatment goes back to normal, and life (including driving) continues to get back to normal SOON!!  

I do feel God is guiding me through this, there is something bigger to this whole mess – I need to figure out what is but it is coming.

Thank you all for the love and support you have given me – even if I haven’t talked about it much, it means more than you will ever know.

I love you all!

PS: Here's a link to me walking

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UlN7fNGp8gU

A reason??

The pathology from the 2^nd mass removal came back (I got it today) and it showed to be the same cancer the first one (the same as the original breast cancer).

I visited with Dr. H today and I left there feeling good.  She said I am an odd case…something she hasn’t seen before…but honestly I feel good about all this…at least she hasn’t seen this craziness before.

Odd I know, but I do feel like the brain stuff is gone.

I felt all along since the first surgery that it wasn’t done, but now I do – it is different.

I go see a brain cancer dr. tomorrow – not sure what to expect with him.  I have a PET scan on Friday, and then treatment as usual (hopefully) will start back up next week.

So here is where I am – I truly trust I am going to be ok. I feel at peace with what has happened – not saying I have liked it or want to do it again, but I do feel like I will be ok…I will be healthy again…I will be here to raise Ian, to love Eric, to see my family and friends grow old…I am at peace with it all and I do feel like God has brought me through this for a reason...I am not sure what the reason is yet but there is a reason.