Third time is a charm?!?!
Yesterday was a day like no other. Ian and I were running
errands and after our stop at Pier One, we were walking down the stairs to go
Party City to start looking at Halloween stuff…because you know…why wouldn’t we
start looking and thinking about Halloween costumes two months in advance?!?!
Exactly.
While walking down the stairs my right side kind of went
numb – not all the way numb but for me to get it to work, I had to think the
thought – “move right hand” over and over to get it to move. I called Eric
right away because I was thinking driving wasn’t the best idea! Then Eric and I
thought it might be from low blood sugar, so we went to get some lunch. At
lunch, the numbness got worse and my right foot was heavy…I could still move
it, but it was heavy and weird.
I called Dr. H and she said go to ER...YIKES that freaked me
out.
Got to ER, Dr. H had
already called, so we were able to go right back..hey, I guess having an
oncologist that rocks has its perks?!
Eric left me there and took Ian over to Teri’s because we
had no idea how long we would be there and let’s just say, a 5 year old + ER
doesn’t equal happiness.
They did an immediate EKG then Dr. H ordered an MRI.
Waited for the MRI results…
ER doctor came in to give us the news…definitely NOT what we
were expecting.
ER doctor told me that there is a mass in my brain.
Not sure why, but every time I get this news, I expect the
doctor to pause and say, “Just Kidding…you are good to go…get on out of here.”
I waited for it…for him to say those next few lines…
He didn’t.
So me and Eric did what we do – we hug, we cry, we say it
sucks, we hug some more – then we shake it off, pull on our brave pants and ask
what comes next…where do we go from here.
The neurosurgeon came in to talk to us (I thought he was at
the hospital and just stopped by, but come to find out from Dr. H this morning,
she called him yesterday and asked him to stop by to talk to us) score 14,857
for Dr. H being awesome!
He showed us the MRI and the mass is on the back of my
brain. It is 2-3 cm large and mostly liquid.
As far as having a mass on the brain goes, this one is in a
REALLY good place – it isn’t in a place that could affect memory, speech,
personality, body movement, etc. Gina
told me they better not take the crazy out of me…don’t worry…I will still be me…just
without a piece of my brain.
Next steps: PET scan on Tuesday or Wednesday; consult with brain
Dr; surgery on Thursday or Friday.
In the meantime, mom and Tammy are flying in today. Rachele
and dad will be here for surgery. Eric’s parents want to come also, but I think
we will have them wait a few weeks.
Dr. H called to touch base with me this morning. She said if
I was to have to get another tumor, this is the best place to get one – it can
be cut out, radiated and good to go. She
laughed and said it sounds weird, but more than anything this is just a major inconvenience
– which I say all the time…cancer is just one big pain in my ass.
If you are the praying type – will you please pray a few
things:
~ Dr. H gets approval
for me to stay on BSI (trial drug – they MIGHT see this as me being not NED,
but she said that is stupid because systemically, I am NED. None of the chemo drugs I have had can cross
the blood brain barrier…therefore; there has been no way for any drugs to get
to my brain.)
~ Surgery is easy and I don’t miss any of my brain
~ PET shows no evidence of disease
I know Eric & I have the strength and grace to make it through this bump in the road.
We are faithful that God is good and He does have a bigger
plan for us.
Does that make it suck any less…no, it still sucks, but it
will be ok.
I still feel that I have a long life ahead of me. I still feel
like I will be here to help Ian grow up into an amazing man, to love and
support Eric, to make my friends laugh, to simmer my mom and sister down, to
paint to the world, to write a book…to laugh and love.
9 comments:
Renee. I'm am on my knees right this moment praying for you, Eric and Ian. Count on my prayers, friend.
Love you!
Steph
Oh damn. I am so sorry to hear this news, Renee. Sending up lots of prayers for you.
Great post and candor...and we love us some Dr. H!! Good job, you guys, getting it together and to the hospital and getting quick care, too...you get points, too!!! xox
Oh my...not the news you were expecting for sure. Praying for you and your precious family!
Renee! I'm so sorry to hear this - but I'm so very happy you have the most proactive doctor I've ever heard of. Lots of good thoughts and prayers to you.
I am praying for you and your family. Renee you are BRAVE strong and beautiful, I just believe you will have this removed and get on with being the amazing you.
I'll pray for Eric to be strong.
Be Brave and Fight Like a Girl!!!
your cancer kicking sister, Cherie
Cancer sucks!!! I'm so sorry Renee! I will be praying for you, Ian , Eric and your families! hang in there! Please add me to Eric's list for after the surgery.
Dear Renee,
I am praying for a speedy recovery. I am praying for your family. You are an inspiration to us all, and I hope that this will be just an obstacle that you overcame:)
Sincerely,
Jessica Huddle
(Gina's friend)
I know you don't know who I am but I know who you are from my friend Holly Anissa. She told me about you a long time ago when she did your pictures. You're an amazing woman and I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers! <3
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