But now I am a little worried about being not being on my chemo this weekend.
I still don’t to have energy all day long. I can go a few hours, but then I crash. It sucks to have this “want to do” list, but never getting it ¼ of the way done.
My patience is gone at 600 pm and it sucks because I haven’t been with Ian or Eric most of the day, but I am just so tired in the evening my patience just vanishes. I have really been working on not being grumping to them.
I think I might need to start PT again. My walking in wonky and it is making my knee hurt.
I am tired of not having feeling in my whole left leg.
I am tired of having to have Eric to everything physical. I SO want to help him move our sh*t to the new house, and him not have all this weight on his shoulders – for me to be his other half. I feel more like a growth that he has to lug around.
Blah – I am just blah.
Luckily we have a birthday party to go to today and all my friends will be there too – really, I think we throw our kids these birthday parties for us mommies to get together?!?! Whatever, the kids are happy! OH, and us too!!