I am not sure where to even start or where to even go with
this – with this whole situation I am once again facing
This whole situation my family and friends are once again
enduring with and for me
I want to be strong but I feel like my courage it seeping
out faster than God can refill my cup
I want to understand but I know I never will
So then I try to give it away – all of it away to God, but
let me tell you friends that is hard.
There always seems to be a tiny piece that latches on and lingers
My whole right leg and foot are numb again.
I told Dr hottie that I just want to be able to walk after
this surgery – and I am fine even if that is with a cane.
But if I have to choose one – walk or use of my right hand –
I will take my hand to draw, paint and write.
I don’t think it is fair for me to think if I have to choose
one.
Oh Sweet Sweet God – please heal me, please protect me,
please be with me through this all and carry me to the other side of the valley
I am scared
My girls had a birthday party for me yesterday, where we laughed, cried and come up with a plan. I told them they can't let me hole up like I wanted to last time. They made me a video - I haven't seen yet.
I am going to make myself a video today to remind me about how far I have come these past 4 months and that it can once again be done.
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Surgery is scheduled first thing Thursday morning.
I am going to a Prayer Warrior today after dropping Ian off
at school, then my mom and sister will be here and hopefully we will get
pedicures at some point today?
Please pray first and foremost this is just necrosis – that means
just scare tissue and no tumor. Please pray for God to guide all my Doctors and
comfort my family and friends.
13 comments:
Praying like I've never prayed. I love you brave warrior sister of my soul.
Hugs,
Marci
Lots and lots and lots of prayers!
In Jeremiah 29:11, God’s says; “Renee, I know my plans for you declares the Lord. My plans to prosper
You not to harm you. My plans to give you hope and a future.”
Much love!
So many are with you and love you very much.
Love and prayers to you Renee
Kristie
Renee, we haven't talked in a while, bu please know I've been keeping up with you via this blog and I'm in your corner with prayers and healing thoughts!
Xoxo
Jeanne Kramer
So very many prayers being sent your way. Dawn
I am praying for you! Your courage and reliance on God through everything is a true encouragement to many others.
I saw your friend Tarah's post on FB and posted to her post but just wanted to let you know I will be praying for you tomorrow. You are strong and you have a lot of support. Wishing the best for tomorrow.
Molly
Renee, I'm a friend of Holly Thompson's and have been following your journey for quite some time now. <3 Sending my love, light and prayers tomorrow and in the days, months and years to come. <3
I'm praying Renee! I think about you often throughout the day and life you in prayer every time.
Renee, I "know" you from Holly Thompson's beautiful portraits. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Sending strength and love your way tomorrow.
I saw the photos Holly took of you, and heard about your latest battle. I just wanted to let you know that tomorrow I will be thinking about you, and sending you strength and healing thoughts. As a Stage IV Breast Cancer survivor myself, I can only imagine how terrified and angry you must be right now. Have faith in your doctors and yourself...you've done this before, and will do it again. You will be strong, and you will fight, because this is your path. Much love to you!!!
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