Too many things have happened these past few days that makes my stomach turn and scares the crap out of me.
One of our Pink Ribbon Cowgirls passed away – she was young….my age young and had a 4 year-old-son. My heart hurts for family and friends and especially her son.
Then I just got an email update from another PRC, she stopped chemo September 15 and was free and clear of the C word – it is back and she has to start chemo again.
I don’t get it. I do so good at thinking I am doing good and thinking I have it all under control and then something like this happens and I think, this could so easily be me.
It is fine line I am trying not to cross – thinking about these people, their situations, their hurt and in turn thinking “what if” that is me again? It could so easily be me again.
It sucks, cancer sucks.
I live with stage IV metastatic breast cancer that has caused 3 brain surgeries and leukemia that required a bone marrow transplant. . I like to write about life - and I don't hold back! My mission is to always remind myself and others anything is possible,
2 comments:
Renee,
Yes, cancer sucks- and it could be you again, it could be me. But right now it is not. Celebrate that fact now.
I used to always "freak out" when I would hear of someone with a recurrence or someone who had passed away. I try to do something positive for that person or persons who are struggling. This does 2 things- it keeps your mind busy and it helps or honors your friend.
I have learned in the last 10 years, that God has a plan for you- it is your job to have faith in that plan (much easier said than done). When I was diagnosed, I was 31 and single. I am now married and was blessed with a daughter- something I never thought could happen to me post cancer.
Sorry to go on, I know it is hard not to worry or get down. Stay positive-
Theresa
Thinking of you and praying for you, as always, sis.
Praying that God give you a "peace that surpasses all understanding" as you wrestle with these things.
Love and hugs to you.
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