Have Faith & Fly

Not sure where to start with this because the line that keeps popping into my mind is, “I have a dream” and well, I do have a dream to create something with true meaning behind it.

I want to create paintings with positive affirmations to hang over children’s beds and their parents to read to them. I want to create paintings to embrace family. I want to create paintings to help change the world one child/person at a time that are full of love, joy and heart.

This is the first one I created, and I am working on another.

The quote on this one was from Mother Teresa, “Love begins by taking care of the closest ones - the ones at home.”

So true and something I have to remember all the time.

Leopards & Lilies Creative

I can finally say Leopards & Lilies Creative is up and running. Now, it isn’t the well oiled machine I have dreamt about but you know what? It is great for now and will keep getting better.

I am very proud of what I have accomplished thus far with L&L Creative: my classes, me getting out there and marketing, keeping my blog updated and learning a lot about myself along the way.

If you haven’t been there yet, check out my new blog. Leopards & Lilies Creative
If you are so inclined to spread the word, please do so!

Super woman...

I am not and I am having a really hard time admitting to myself. I woke up in a panic last night over Shop, Sip & Share and am not sure it is going to happen this year. I just can't put it all together myself. Yes, people have wonderfully said they would help but that isn't enough at this point. There is so much to be done and with me being a stay at home mom, getting my business off the ground, take time for myself to work out, helping Team Survivor get our new blog up and writing for that 2 - 3 times a week and volunteering as an angel at church - something has to give.

Here is what I have left to do to make SS&S come together:

Find more vendors, get food donations, get wine donations, get cocktail table donations, get raffle donations, advertise/market event. I just can't do it all with the 7 hours a week Ian is at school and keep everything going. I am not sure what I am looking for with writing this - not sure if i am looking for someone to tell me it is okay if I throw in the towel, if I want someone to tell me to suck it up - I don't know.

I am having a really hard time justifying all this work and stress for $1600 - what we raised last year. But then I question, what if everyone only settled for raising $5K or more - would any money ever be raised for the little people (yes, I am one of the little people)??

Oh - I don't know what to do. I have thought and prayed on it, asked for an answer but we all know those answers are never a sign saying yes or no - oh, how that would be nice.

The voice

The one that tells me to question if I am healthy, if the cancer is really gone, if I really did get the easy road out of c-ville is back and is nagging me...I am pretty sure I am not crazy, but I will rule nothing out at this point!

It is back for two reasons: one, my “cancerversary” came and went with no thought - in fact it wasn't until 2 days past it I realized it pasted - but after the diagnosis comes the chemo. I started chemo 2 years ago on 10/6 and I always (what, last year?!?!) get a little panicked when I think about it. The sh*t we went through was just that – sh*t and I in no way want to go through it ever again.

Reason two: I have heard way too many stories lately of women getting whole body cancer after breast cancer – UGH. It just never settles within me when I hear those stories.

It is odd though, I honestly do feel in my heart I will never have to visit c-ville again. So maybe if I can find a cure to shut this voice up I would be doing something great for all of us survivors?!?!For now, I must tell it to shut the hell up and hope I’m really not crazy!