Emotional basket case

I had planned this week to be full of sparkling rays of glittery sunshine - you know - for my new birthday and all.

So far - not so good.

I am an emotional mess strung out on steroids. 

I haven’t been able to get my steroid level right to keep the post bone marrow transplant HVG (host vs graft). So I am exhausted again, having major stomach issues and honestly pissed. 

As with all my crap, I expect to be able to bounce back and don’t think my healing should take as long as it does.

WRONG 

Now I am just praying to feel good on Saturday for my birthday party!