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Mother's Day 

My 37th birthday 

Renee In Cancerland book signing party 

Yes, on the calendar it looks like I had a magical past 2 weeks.

In real life though...not at all.

I have pneumonia and ALL the above didn't get to happen.

I haven't felt worth a damn in about 2 weeks. 

I had to miss all the above and it has really sucked.

I haven't felt this exhausted from laying around doing nothing since radiation.

Marci even came in town for book event and we decided it would be best if she left early...so she left on Saturday after only getting here on Friday.

My heart broke when I realized I wasn't going to be well enough to take part in something I have been working on for so long.

I have been telling myself there is something bigger and better waiting to happen.

Book Launch Postponed

Hi everyone- it's Eric, writing for Renee.

She wanted me to write a quick note on the blog to make sure everyone knew that tomorrow's book launch will be postponed to a later date.

She thanks everyone SO much for the support and love that has been flowing for her book, and is so very disappointed that she can't do everything as scheduled.

She's doing well with her antibiotics, but the Pneumonia really was taking it out of her, and has been resting as best she can for the past few days.

I'm sure she'll be back posting herself shortly, and in the meantime, we appreciate all the thoughts and well wishes.

-Eric

Becoming real...and scary

I was going through reading some entries from my book, “Renee in Cancerland” trying to decide what few entries I should read at my upcoming book party.

But man alive, reading this book is like a magic time machine for me that takes me back into the hurricanes of my life.  I used to say I didn't know why people would continue to live where hurricanes are possible, but I get it know…because that is their life and they love it there.

Honestly though, I am scared.

What if no one other than my friends/family want this book?

I want to say I will be OK with that, but honestly I will be heartbroken. I want others to read this, hold it above their head and shout, “HELL YES! I can do this too.” But I realize, just because that is how I would/did respond to cancer crap doesn’t mean others will too…or even want too.

Then I question myself on my ability to spread the word of my book organically? I mean, I really don’t know what I am doing when it comes to social media.

I know I put on an “ahh, if it works it works and if it doesn't it doesn't” face, but I really, really, REALLY want it to word...to reach others and help them too.

I guess just like other things in my like, I will go into this with high hopes and deal with the after when it comes?!?!

The real me

I know we all like to look like we have all of our shit together for the outside world to see. I want to change that.

I want to show you me... that being perfectly imperfect is me.

People tell me all the time that I am an inspiration and I am honored to be that for them.

I just want to let all of you know that no matter where you are in your journey...STOP comparing yourself to others.

All we see of others is the outside veiw and that is the veiw we compare ourselves to... 

I am going to start giving you true veiws of my day to day life in hopes of you knowing no matter what your house looks, what is going on in life... I want to try to show you how to love the real you.